Come on, come on, Lift Your Eyes Up

So I definitely needed someone to tell me that.  So I told myself.  

Bahh....  That's one of the few words I have about today.  Crappy shopping trip and school tomorrow....  Maybe I'll get sick and not have to go.  Mustn't get my hopes up.... 

GAHH. Another word I could use.  

There are several others, but it wouldn't be very Christ-like for me to use them....  So i just won't speak.  

Other than through poetry.  Here's poem.  

Prayer from the Beautiful

With fifteen years to my name

You wouldn’t think I’d know this pain

God, I just want to forget

But it follows me everywhere I go

Now I’m in the shadow of these memories

No one gets it, no one understands

It’s so funny, a joke, of course

But, God, you know, it hurts much worse

I am a caged animal

Locked in a trap inside my mind

And I can’t find escape from this lock and key

That I, for some reason, wanted for me

I wanted, so bad, to be beautiful

That I forgot what’s actually immaterial

If I’d known the pain that all of this would bring

I would’ve wished, in a second, to be ugly

Who I am is what they see

It hurts to know that’s why they pursue me

Because, one day, I won’t look so great

My value, to so many, will just be gone

God, I know he’s out there, waiting for me

A gift from You, my own prince charming

I hope he understands why I fear pain

Why I long to be more than a pretty face

Hasta la bye bye from CatCooper